sad and disappointed

Im pretty much disgusted with my family.. for weeks, my father had been having sores, aches and alot of sickness..he had been visiting the hospital often.. He had some bad habits, of most obvious are eating too much oily food, smoking, not drinking enough water and not covering food after he finished cooking and eat them hours later..These got to stop but they dont even listen to what i ever said..everytime seeing my father buying/cooking oily food makes me sick..and i thought i cant just pretend nothing happens which is what my parents do best..and also not belive a word that come out of my mouth..even the smallest matter..now im going for NS soon..and obviously im worried bout them..so i started to be more verbal and kept reminding them with an angry tone to let them know im serious and please fucking listen to me..i even brought a pyagu(individual water dispenser) for my father to remind him 8 glasses of water a day

Well things started to improved as i see my father steaming more stuffs, smoking not too much(at least when im around) and cooking veggies..i thought my plan worked and my parents understand me..yeah right as if they even try..

Once i tried an hunger strike, not eating an oily dinner and telling them off that im sick of seeing oily food everyday..guess what, my mum scolded me asking me why my character is like this..den just now they were talking really louder at the kitchen my sis was saying im getting firece, no wonder they must listen to me..and my mother replied..yeah hes correct and we are in the wrong for everything..we must just shut up..honestly that disgusted me and hurt me alot..i told them off angrily and sadly saying im doing this because now i cant go NS in peace if they continue such habits..why the hell did she say such words..guess her reply??

Just say only mah cannot ar.. and guess whats next..they just go and watch tv laughing happily..

as far as im concerned..the warm home i hoped for is burnt