Surprise

Guess wat? jus when every1 thought that my blog is dead (not much ppl cared anyways), i wrote an entry out of nowhere. I started being lazy to blog cos last time i no broadband, tik of wat to write on microsoft word den cut n paste here..sumtimes accidentally delete the post which was frustrating.. alsousualy i blog to reflect on eventsd or a period of life but i found that while tikin of wat to write, lots of flashback flow past my mind but when tryin to pin them dwn wif appropriate words, my vocabulary was limited so i tot y bother? as long as i reflected..

Anyways i aint gonna blog bout wat happen since the last time i blog cos actually i forgot when it was..blogged today cos today marks the last lect of my poly life..it was short abt 10mins but nevertheless its still my last lect.. Also this could b the last time i will eat the $2.50 laksa in sch..the laksa auntie always gave generous servings of shredded chicken, tau pok and fish cake..not to mention a whole egg..it looks like a mountain n i had attracted stares at times holdin to the bowl of laksa..when eatin, im usually busy jus gulpin dwn, ignoring my surroundings lol..

K enuff of laksa..haha i gotta say i hate farewells..usualy get weak n emotional so i usually end the farewell simple n quick..bye n get lost..hell i almost dropped a tear when i leave my ntuc job..now dat i tik of it im quite weak..n soon im gonna say farewell to my poly life, not to b jnown as a student..may never mit up wif sum frens again..but oh well dats a one of life's precious experiences..

In terms of results, im pretty much fucked up..dis sem tio tons Bs..sum tell me its better can gettin Cs but..arrgh..n especially i hate my father everytime he ask bout my results..whenever i dun get A he will jus say huh not A ar? n if i get A he would say huh not A plus ar? den he will follow up wif u the lousiest in the class izit..I noe..hes jus jokin but i jus cant accept it..i mean y the hell do u tik i study for? its to get a gd job so i can support my parents in the future to pay back wat i owe them.. n ever since young, dey had never trusted me much nor had they respected my decisions..i dun wanna go into details n i didnt let those affect me but wat gif them the right to make fun n ridicule wat i had been striving hard for..i dun care if dey dun encourage me..dey never did n i dun expect dem to anyways..if i were a parent i also mayb will b shy n seldom encourage my kids but wat the fuck..dun insult my efforts..

Phew other than sch results, my NS pes result is E9L9..unfit for physical trainin n cannot protect myself..i always tot that ns was a place where i will suffer real hardship..frm boy become man..but wat the hell NS 8-5 like doing a slack job doing no trainin and all..i noe sum would pay for dis pes but i wan at least experience ns which i cant anymore..the only thing i hope to learn frm ns is mayb deres a person hu born wif defect n haf a brave story or sort..sum1 wif great determination much more than me..dan i could learn a thing or 2 frm him..

Ah well perhaps tis all arranged so dat i will learn sumthing new..haha sumtimes i belive in faith u noe if dis was meant to happen so i can learn sumthing or to remind me of sumthing..so at times i would refuse help from others n face my own destiny...but still nid help in the end anyways..

All thats left for my poly life is exams..so lets go rock the papers n lucks for every1..plus more lucks to me