Uncertainty

Dats the feelin i haf everytime im doing sumthing important or for others..did i done it properly?..how long do i intend to make mistakes here n dere..

Today i started work n the main thing i did was assemble downlights..I was told the job was easy but my fren, he himself never did dis b4..well it aint difficult to fix the things..i kinda memorised al the steps in 2 tries but the hard part of dis is screwin the wires n ensure dat its tightly screwed.. The lights would b sent for checkin n if the wires r loosely connected, well nothing gd would happen for the company..haizz so im responsible for my lights.. Responsibility..sumthing dats ppl avoid but had to carry it sooner or later..wat if i didnt screw the wires tight enuff.. I keep gettin dis uncertainty its psychotic..like i feel the nid to check the assembled downlights agian n again..dis must not keep up..jus do it well n keep on movin is wat i shld do..well its easier said dan done

Also jus now tio owned by the big boss man dere..i had problem screwin a bolt which was like decomposed as the bolt was not strong n screwin the bolt disfigured it..well i spent 20mins strugglin n all den i told the big boss man i tried n its quite impossible to screw the wire tightly..den the big boss man jus take the screwdriver, screw the bolt n in 3secs, wala, done..knn i felt F'in noob..their target was to finish 11 palettes of downlights, 1 palette = 8 boxes. 1 box = 6 downlights..n today i only fixed bout 6-8 nia..togethr we finished up 4boxes..1/2 palette nia

Well tomolo lets aim to finish up 2 palettes..i dun wanna b like today..tomolo i shall work hard..increase speed n not b coplacent wif quality..lol i told myself to do so jus now but failed..i was slowed dwn due to some faulty parts but mainly my weakling strength..i dun wanna get owned n i shall stop whinin now..i cant drop dwn at such a small challenge when im aimin at bigger challenges in the future..Running Wild!